So my Mom is having an appointment with my therapist and psychiatrist at school so they can talk about how bad I’m getting. Should be interesting.
Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I’ll still feel you here ‘til the moment I’m gone.
You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your reign.
Set me free, leave me be. I don’t want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I’m supposed to be.
But you’re on to me and all over me.
I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you’re everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you’re neither friend nor foe though I can’t seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you’re keeping me down.
You’re keeping me down, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
You’re on to me, on to me, and all over…
Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
Sara Bareillis
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So about the semicolon project, drawing one on my arm would mean actually drawing attention to my scars. So no I will not post pictures on Instagram to show that I know my life isn’t over.
Numb
Sometimes I hurt myself just to try to feel something. I smile but don’t feel happiness, I laugh but don’t feel joy, I don’t feel remorse or guilt. I can’t cry and I don’t get upset anymore. I feel like I go through motions but don’t actually feel like I’m in my own body. I feel like I’m underwater and everything is muffled.
When I choose to sit alone in class I feel like people look at me like I’m a loner, when actually I just don’t want to be near other people.
I feel like every day another part of me dies…soon there will be nothing left.
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Hello. Okay, so I'm really scared, I have no idea what to do, I'm terrified to talk to anyone about this, I don't know if its OCD or what? but okay so I guess I'll tell you my symptoms. I have these intrusive thoughts they won't go away& I hate it so much, I sometimes think I like "like" my family members which is insane because I would never & Also thinking I'm a lesbian, I know I'm not a lesbian but these thoughts never leave, & then about violence & if I don't do something I might die (&more)
Anonymous
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That’s 100% the OCD. I used to have similar intrusive thoughts about being a lesbian and violence. It’s not you, it’s the thoughts. It can be really hard and confusing to ignore them, and it took me a very long time to be able to, but it’s possible!
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Hi! I dunno what to do anymore...I dunno if its OCD or whatever it is because I'm too scared to get help because I'm scared of what my parents and my friends and everyone will think of me. But I know that if I don't get help, it just gets worse and worse. I can't control it anymore, it's like i'm fighting with myself and I can't control anything! But I'm still too scared to get help or tell anyone. What do I do? Please help me, I'm going insane.
Anonymous
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What are the symptoms that you are experiencing, can you describe them to me?
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Hi! I have a question...how do I ask for help? I dont think I have the guts to tell my parents about the intrusive thoughts I've been getting, my obsessive need to touch something or do something over and over again to make it feel "right", my need for everything ot be clean and neat and organized, why I keep on mumuring stuff to myself in a continuous loop and more..I dunno...I don't know if this is OCD but I don't thinkt his is normal and i feel like I can't control my thoughts. Help please?
Anonymous
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Hi! The way that I went about it is that I called my insurance company and asked them which places would take my insurance. I also found out that I would need to be referred to a psychiatrist from my primary healthy doctor. I went and saw my doctor and I told her what I was experiencing. She presribed a mild anti-depressant so until I could see the psychiatrist. She gave me numbers to call and I set everything up through their secretary. It’s hard to get an appointment that isn’t at least a month away, but eventually I saw the doctor I needed to. The one that I ended up seeing, and now see is one that is at my local hospital. My mom didn’t know too much about the OCD, I just told her that I needed to see someone because I was having problems, it wasn’t until later that I let her know, so you don’t have to tell your parents right away, but you should because that way they can help you :) You shouldn’t have to do this alone.
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I have OCD and I been controlling it pretty well until recently it all just spiraled up. I even have OCD thoughts in my sleep! Checking my wallet, counting the number of charger in my house, and it seems like everything is soon to become a ritual again. Is there any tip or advice you can give to calm these thoughts?
Anonymous
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Have you tried grounding? I have a post about it and that seems to help me. I also just try my hardest to remind myself that it’s the OCD and not my own thoughts. I dream in OCD as well so you’re not alone on that one!!!! When all else fails, I just take deep breaths and wait for the anxiety to pass.
The parts of the chips I didn’t eat because I touched them.
I hate when your sitting in a theatre and people keep on sliding by you to get to a seat. I’ve had people bump into me three times already.
The toilet from hell.
So yesterday my toilet decided to overflow -___- and no one was home except for me. So I had to be the one to clean it up. I’m proud of myself for doing it, but at the same time my anxiety levels were out the roof after I was done.
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Today I see my psychologist, I wanna ask her for anitdepressants and sleeppills, but my mom said she probably won't give them. Shall I ask it anyways? And tell her about my OCD? Im scared for treatment..
Anonymous
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Technically your psychologist can’t give you a prescription, but a psychiatrist can. You can talk to her about going on them and ask her if she thinks you need them. I think you should also tell her, they can only help you if you let them know everything :)
I keep worrying that when people speak they are going to spit while they talk and it’s going to hit me.
