Had to shake a strangers hand today to not seem rude…washed my hands like 15 times after.
A sad soul can kill you quicker, far quicker, than a germ.
John Steinbeck
I’m loosing my mind. I hate this so much. Will I ever feel clean again?
I seriously can’t deal with the outside world anymore. I’ve reached my limit.
fuck, i hate going to the hospital, so many sick people and so many germs.
That moment when your hands crack so badly that you start to bleed. Then you’re worried that you’re going to get an infection because you have an open cut.
When watching Hey Arnold at 3 am
Harold and Gerald are in the bathroom and of course I notice that neither of them use soap to wash their hands.
I mean they’re a fucking cartoon and it still annoys me.
I have issues.
When I go into a public bathroom and it’s dirty, I get it..
But when I go into the bathroom in my house and its disgusting looking, I can’t take it. Why doesn’t anyone one in my family clean up after themselves or put the toilet seat down. Why do I have to be tortured in my own home.
This is exactly how I put it on too
Q
are there any particular diseases or germs you are afraid of? (if you don't mind me asking)
Anonymous
A
The ones that I am the most afraid of are STDS. I feel like if I were to get an std then no one would want to be with me. Especially the ones that can’t be cured like HIV. I also have an irrational fear that I will get one from someone just touching me.
Changing
Today I had to change:
- My pants 3 times
- My underwear twice
- My socks three times
- My shirt twice
If I feel that something gets too dirty I need to take it off.
Fainting.
The withdrawal from my meds has made me really dizzy, I almost fainted today, and now I’m terrified that I will faint in the shower at my dorm. If that happened I would hyperventilate to death.
Today has been not a good day to have OCD.
Too many people, too many germs.
