When I asked her what was wrong she said that she feels so bad because I’m in my room instead of at the fireworks with my friends. She knows that I wouldn’t go because I didn’t want to be around all of the people and crowds.
I feel awful that she’s upset =/
Back to college tomorrow. Just when I was starting to do a little better.
Today was a rehearsal because I have a show coming up. I started to have an anxiety attack because someone sat on my chair which had my jacket on it. I was literally crying my eyes out and hyperventilating and she came over and said to me that my behavior was unacceptable and that I need to keep my problems outside of rehearsals. Basically she said that I was freaking out for no reason. WHAT THE FUCK. She knows I have OCD, how could she be so insensitive and rude. She acts like I can control it. Bitch, you think it’s inconvenient for you, imagine how the fuck I feel.
