Sometimes I’m not sure if I should be considered suicidal or not.
I honestly don’t think I would ever kill myself. I could never do that to my family or friends. But sometimes I’ll be driving and think of driving my car into a tree or off a bridge. I’ve had thoughts of stabbing myself since I was a little kid ( creepy I know). Or I wonder if it is just the part of my OCD where I get violent images and thoughts in my head that I wouldn’t actually act on.
This is the more disturbing side of my OCD.