CAN I PLEASE JUST HAVE ONE FUCKING DAY WHERE THINGS ACTUALLY GO DECENTLY. NOT EVEN GOOD. JUST DECENT. I JUST WANT ONE DAY WHERE I DIDN’T WISH I WAS DEAD.
I fucking hate pharmacies. Don’t tell me my prescription is ready and then I get here and have to wait.
I’m going through such bad withdrawal right now I feel so sick like I’m going to faint or vomit
I want to leave. When I say leave I mean I don’t...
For the past week the new psychiatrist I’m seeing told me to cut my Celexa dosage in half, and today I’m not supposed to take anything at all so that tomorrow I can start Luvox.
I’m too much of a coward to kill myself. And too much of a coward to live.– Jodi Picoult, The Pact. (via baker-94)
Anonymous asked: Darling I know it's taugh when you feel like no one understands you. Ypur friends probably haven't been through anything you've been so they wont understand, but youre going to group counceling right? Maybe you can try and make friends there, who ...
I’m so frustrated for so many reasons. First of all: I feel like it’s pointless for me to tell my friends what’s going on with me. At first everyone was so concerned and what not, and now, I tell them things and it’s like they don’t even get phased. They don’t get that when I say I’m suicidal that I really am, when I say I have PTSD, they look confused....
it looks like you are going through a really hard time right now. i just want you to know that your tumblr has helped me feel better about a lot of my ocd, and i wish you a speedy recovery. may you find all the help you need <3 let me know if i can help at all. ~amanda
I feel like I’m starting to take crazy to a whole new level.
I feel really trapped right now.
I feel like I’m going to start hyperventilating
fuckyeahsirharder: vastderp: Being skeptical that another person can be incapacitated by a mental illness because you cope just fine with your problems is basically the same as saying “I don’t understand why other people’s brakes fail, because my car works great.” I reblog this every time.
The people in group make me anxious. As in their actions, their anxieties rub off on me and make me more anxious. If someone is fidgeting it makes me crazy.
Just went to the gynecologist, I didn’t have as much anxiety as I thought I would about it.
So I was joking around with my friends sister and she put her hand over my mouth to get to me stop teasing her….
Anonymous asked: I think I have OCD and it's terrible and goes way beyond how raw my hands are. Like, I'll get these awful violent/sexual mental images and to get rid of them, I have to do all of these things really meticulously. It's time consuming and all consuming. How do I tell my parents--because all of this is really starting to scare me?
Anonymous asked: you don't have to answer if you don't want to but i was wondering, what kind of intrusive thoughts do you have because i think i have them too.
Anonymous asked: This isn't about OCD, but I truly think I have PTSD; what should I do?
Anonymous asked: i hope your doing good and i was just wondering if your friends notice ur OCD behaviors and if u care if they notice them. Also i was wondering what time of OCD behaviors u have. i also have OCD and its been a struggle but i would like to say that I am getting better. and i hope that you are getting better also xoxo
I'm also starting Luvox on Monday.
I hope this one works.
Anonymous asked: i hope everything turns out great for you, you"ve given me great advice and you"ve relieved my stress, and like the person you met today at the group i also wish you can heal :)
Anonymous asked: just know i love you. no matter what
Made someone cry in group.
I don’t know really how. I was just talking about the things I wish that I could do if I didn’t have OCD like touch people etc. and she asked basically how I started to get so bad and I mentioned how something bad happened to me when I was younger and Idk she just started to tear up. I felt bad that I made her sad :( but she told me that she wishes that I can heal and that she commends...
somastainedsmile asked: I'm sorry your friend invalidated your symptoms and experiences like that. It's hard, and you're not alone- but unfortunately you'll rarely meet other's who are like you, it will mostly be idiots who don't understand mental illness and invalidate it. You're emotions and experiences are all valid and you deserve to be recognized, love. Don't let anybody tell...
First day of group… Oh boy
Tomorrow is my first day of group therapy.
I would rather sleep in.
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) -...
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I am so upset right now.
I swear I’m on the verge of a mental breakdown.
I was trying to tell my friend that I was diagnosed with PTSD and she said she thinks she has it because she’s stressed out and her eye twitches and apparently its stress related…I want to cry. Then she asked why I have it…apparently being molested is up there with daily stress from work.
I will be starting an iop program tomorrow. Three hours a day three days a week.
I was diagnosed with post traumatic stress...
last night was such an awful night for me
I showered and went to sleep, doing everything in my routine. Then an hour later I woke up with food poisoning making me have to get up in the middle of the night. Then I had to shower all over again and wasn’t back in bed until 5:30 in the morning =(
Anonymous asked: If you havent already.. please don't cut yourself. Try to do it for your child(ren?). You deserve to get better. Stay strong ♡
When I was little I used to get thoughts about...
i want to cut so badly
im trying to find reasons not to
things that are scary
My friends from home have no idea what’s been going on with me or how suicidal my thoughts have been. If I were to kill myself, they would have had no idea what was going through my head.
lolita-alexandra asked: Where are you going to be doing therapy? Is it IOP?
I hate when I hear that I got a text message and I...
The problem is that you don’t just choose recovery. You have to keep choosing...– Carrie’s Blog Post (via oddi-tea)
has anyone done group therapy before?????
im going to start soon and i dont know what to expect.
what doesn’t kill you leaves scars ruins your lungs dries out all your tears...– c.c. (via fawun)
So I didn't end up having to go to the ER, BUT...
I am being admitted to an out-patient ocd program next week. I will be having therapy monday-thursday for 3 hours a day. Not really sure what to expect.
Ever noticed how your body is trying to keep you...
tits-n-t4ts: dangergays: When you hurt yourself and don’t put a band-aid on it because you think you deserve the pain Your body creates a natural band-aid to keep you protected. When you want to tear open your skin Your skin fights back, creates a tough skin of scar tissue to prevent it happening...